A writer friend recently pointed out to me that I’d been neglecting the page here on Lamellae where I track what I’m working on. I was a bit surprised to discover it had been over a year since I’d updated it!
I’ve now set that to rights, but it was interesting to see how my work, my impetus to work and my mental landscape have changed over the past few years of this blog.
Originally, I used that page to track how many words I’d written each month. It was a both a carrot and stick to keep me going when the words were hard and I was very vigilant about keeping it up to date.
Then I found I was editing more than writing new words. This reflects my shift away from trying to improve my short-story writing skills and back to my natural ground of novel writing, but it made tracking words harder and less rewarding. So in 2013 I shifted to tracking projects worked on instead.
It was strangely just not as inspiring as the word tracking, even though it made more sense for the work I was doing. Also, I then spent a long stretch of months working on essentially one edit, so it got a bit boring. That’s about the time I started to neglect the page.
What’s been nice about updating it now – going back over a whole 12 months – has been seeing how much I’ve done in what feels like a low productivity year. I mean I always feel like I could do more in a year, but this 12 month I’ve felt like I was shirking and that isn’t all the loom’s fault.
The slightly disturbing, yet also smile inducing thing, is that I’ve essentially written 1.5 novels and 2.25 novellas in the past 2 years! Only to very rough ‘scratch’ drafts, in most cases, but still that is a lot more than it felt like I’d been doing.
It makes me wonder what my ‘work done’ page will look like for 2016, because in theory I’ll be concurrently finishing and editing five projects! And, no doubt, starting something new too.
Am I a little afraid? Well, yes.